The surgery was super quick and way less painful than last time. The part that freaked me out was when he was poking around trying to lift up the pre-cut flap from last time. That took a minute or two. But the actual lasering was seriously four seconds.

Then I got free coffee, and then I went home! It stung for a bit. Now I haven’t even taken painkillers and I am fine \o/ 10 minutes after the surgery, the doctor had a look at it and said it had already started to heal over. He was like “oh you have a fast healing speed!” Hell yeah. So provided I can avoid sticking my finger in my eye for a week, I am set.

My vision feels all wonky now, I am so used to relying on my left eye. It is like when you put on someone else’s glasses; my brain is like whut, this is so not what we were working with this morning. Work it out, brain.

Under doctor’s instructions, I went and had a two hour nap on the verandah swing after lunch. Naps are A+.

BETTER.

I am getting eye surgery tomorrow morning. I’m excited! Last time they gave me free sunnies, I hope they give me free sunnies? Then these are the things I’m not allowed to do:

- driving for 1 day
- using makeup or shampoo for 3 days
- sleeping unless I have eyepatch on for 3 days
- swimming or contact sports for 1 week
- touching my eye for 1 week

The lack of shampoo is what really takes its toll. Ew.

I think I am worried about prac teaching. And about, like, actual teaching. I had the epiphany today that hey… I don’t have to apply for Spanish teaching jobs! I think I forgot since I started this Dip Ed that I went into it to improve my opportunities for working in ESL. When I ditched Law and went into Linguistics it was to be an ESL teacher. I’ve been sucked into the whole culture of “you will teach what they give you to teach”. But… no! I want to be an English teacher with migrants! That’s my deal!! I actually tried to talk my way out of getting enrolled in Spanish at the beginning of the year because I, really, am no Spanish teacher. So on reflection, no wonder my prac was stressful!! And since February this image has been growing in my head of me living in a country town 10 hours from Adelaide, teaching Spanish and SOSE and… tech studies or something, and I’ve been getting all ohhh I don’t know if I want to do this teaching thing after all. But, no. I just want to work in the metro area, and teach ESL. I think I should stop seeing these as unrealistic goals and get a grip!

I will be stressed out until I get my placement for this prac. Which will be in ESL, thank goodness. Hopefully getting my placement will make me less stressed, depending where it is.

Regarding my eye, I need to get lasik again :( Damnit.

I ended up standing at the bus stop for 30 minutes and being late!!

You can bet there was one strongly-worded email to Adelaide Metro this evening, omg.

Also today I noticed I can basically not see a metre in front of me out of my right eye (left eye is pristine). I… think I need to go to an optometrist? Luckily, my eyes are under warranty for another year! But I do not want to have surgery on them again very much. I wonder how long I have been blind??