Okay I totally got a credit on the exam I feared I failed.
Have totally finished my degree (again!)!
In other news, for the last three nights straight my home phone has rung at about this time (6:30ish). When I answer I get silence, followed by a little piano tune, followed by hanging up. WHAT IS THIS?!
Today is the first day in what must be months that I don’t feel sick or pain in hardly any way at all. Success!!
Unfortunately I am still all stressed out and angsty :(
Goddamnit I wish my body would stop fucking me over!!!
Provided I pass everything I have handed up, I have completed the requirements for my (latest) degree now.
Still no idea what I am doing with the rest of my life :(
Talking to Tim on MSN today, I managed to articulate what I am actually looking for in a career:
- it should be meaningful
- it should pay well
- it should not be very hard or take up all my time
I do not think this job is a real job!
IDK, the three months I did of full time data entry last year have made me hyperaware of the need to not get my soul sucked. This is mainly what I am trying to avoid. It is all a bit scary.
Also apparently I am all quiet and frowny lately. I am sorry, this is why :(
I did my exam!
Most of it was a little bit fudged. The question is: was it fudged well? And time will tell!!
Now I just have a 6 hr placement in the new arrivals program at a primary school next week, and then I have finished my degree \o/
Now… job :(
Hm I have an exam tomorrow! I am about to start studying for it this morning, as I have been busy finishing assignments, being sick, working and… having a life. All noble causes but ultimately bad for my ability to pass Curriculum and Assessment.
Hum.
My atheist grandmother: I wonder if it’s still a church?
Mum: Yeah, it’s still a church.
Granny: Still have churches, do they?
Hahahaha.
My assignment is done and Barack Obama is US president elect… today is better than yesterday!
I am looking at the local ballot measures. They are quite interesting. No gay marriage, but medical marijuana use and stem cell research in Michigan, and… euthanasia in Washington, really?
Fun leader facts: the years 1996-2007 (ages 12-24) were apparently formative enough for me that when I hear people mention the Prime Minister, I still think they mean John Howard until I do a double-take. Hm!
My assignment is not done :(
Too much stress, can’t focus.
It’s not as though I have THAT MANY things to do, it’s that all of it wants to be done ALREADY:
- ASSIGNMENT. NOT DONE, DUE YESTERDAY.
- 6 hours of professional practice project. Requires me to have a whole day free. Was meant to be done by last week but I haven’t been able to fit it in without taking any more days off work which I’m not allowed to take because my boss is in hospital and I’ve already only worked about 7 days in the last two months because of other uni demands e.g. prac and… lectures?
- Marking, so overdue. Did some of this at the basketball last weekend but got told off by a magpie.
- 3-hr exam next Wednesday for a subject I have learned nothing about! Need to take the textbook out of its plastic???
I am exhausted, need holiday :((((
What’s stupid is how, no matter how long I am an “ideal weight” (although a less-than-ideal fitness, but I have made peace with that), no matter how long I maintain that weight without any conscious effort any more, my mood is still linked so directly to what numbers come up on the scales. I have been eating a bit poorly lately and not had time for any specific exercise (although my incidental exercise is decent c/o working a long way from the bus stop). So my concern hit critical mass tonight and I got on the scales right after dinner with all my clothes on and… I was 3kg more than I am used to weighing! So suddenly, oh god, I am going to flunk out of uni, all my friends hate me, I am going to stack on 30kg before the end of the year… PANIC! :-/
So an hour later I had a shower, and tried the scales again upon exit… and was already 1.5kg less :-/ Add to that 12 hours of digestion, and tomorrow morning I might weigh about 500g more than I usually do :-/ So suddenly EVERYTHING IS OKAY AGAIN.
I don’t even know.